Thursday, June 15, 2006

Life is strange

Life is sometimes very strange. It constantly amazes me how I can get exactly what I'm asking for and still not be satisfied with the end results. Case in point... As some of you might be aware, I bring Baby Girl to work with me (and Sweet Pea on school holidays and during the summer). Now, they are 2 and 5 respectively and - I can't say as I blame them on this - spending the entire day at the office with Mommy is not exactly their idea of joy. But you gotta do what you gotta do. Day care is too frickin' expensive (especially for 2) and I have the ability to bring them into the office with me so... During the summer they're both with me, which I thought would be a good thing. Baby Girl likes to be entertained by Sweet Pea, the perfect solution to my inability to get anything constructive done. Instead, I spend most of my day refereeing, putting them in time out, parceling out toys and rotating the video schedule - forget actually doing work like paying the bills, invoicing clients, even answering the phone can be a bit hairy if one of them is yelling. Now, it helps that I have excellent, understanding bosses (and that one of them happens to be my father), but really.

Today, both of my girls are with my Mother. Peace and quiet reign.

And I'm going out of my mind.

I miss them. All week I've been looking forward to the chance to get caught up and maybe get some writing done. Right now, I'm sitting at my computer screen, staring at the blank page and wondering what they're doing. God help me when Baby Girl starts school. I really won't know what to do with myself.

So, what have you gotten in life that didn't turn out the way you expected?


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Smarty Pants said...

Be careful what you wish for. I had a roommate a couple years ago that always used to throw these rowdy parties. Inevitably, there'd be a fight, the cops would show up. I'd just hole up in my room. One night before a party I wished really hard that everyone would just get along for once. The ended up getting drunk and having an orgy in the living room. Figures.

Try to take advantage of a calm day, even if you're distracted by missing them. I can't believe you've already cranked out 100 pages. That's crazy.


Playground Monitor said...

Heck, LIFE didn't turn out the way I expected, although I'm not really sure what I expected. I never dreamed I'd be living anywhere but my home state of North Carolina, yet we've been in Alabama going on 26 years. I never thought about being a writer when I was younger. I started out majoring in education and quickly realized that teaching was not for me. I switched to Psychology, though I'm not sure what I was going to do with that degree -- probably end up as a school counselor or testing specialist maybe.

Sometimes I think if we knew exactly what the future held, we might not be willing to move from today to tomorrow. It's the mystery and unknown that keep us playing the game.


Angel said...

Um, can you say CHILDREN. I was prepared for the work, the hugs, the loss of personal time. I was not prepared for their personalities! Because you know that some personalities don't always jive, and their needs don't always fit with what I'm comfortable doing. So the balancing act commences...

Of course you miss them, just don't obsess about it. Spend some fun time with your characters instead. Keep up the good work with the book!!! I can't believe how much you've gotten done. We're all proud of you.