Sunday, April 23, 2006
As anyone living in my house can tell you, I'm a little stressed at the moment. My Mom has a wedding coming up in two weeks and I have a lot of responsibilities for it. That's not something I mind. I volunteered. But it has just made me a little stressed. Correction: I have made me a little stressed.
Drama Queen asked me today, "Mom, you are worried about Nana's wedding all the time, aren't you?" After marvelling at her insight, I replied, "Yes. Mommy is worried about the wedding. I have a lot of things I am doing for Nana's wedding and I want to do them really well. So that Nana can have a really nice wedding. I get a little nervous about it."
She nodded and went on about her business. I shouldn't be surprised that she noticed. I've been obsessing over what I would wear, invitations, flowers, and other various things for weeks now. I just want to do everything in my power to make my Mom's wedding as perfect as it can be. My therapist says striving for perfection is a real issue for me. :)
I've spent the last two days putting together the bridal bouquet. I think I've finally gotten it the way I pictured, with some help from my extremely talented Mother-in-law. No sooner had I finished glueing the ribbon over the stalks for the handle, my brain had begun the shut-down process. There was no going back.
There would be no more flower obsessing tonight, despite the fact that I have four more bouquets to go, not to mention window arrangements to plan. Instead, I took the night off. I rarely do this, because there are always a million things that need to be done after my children are in bed and snoring for the night. Okay, they don't snore, but they do breathe heavy.
Tonight I watched a movie while reading a book. My husband lacks any understanding of my ability to do this. After all, he's not a woman. He can barely carry on a conversation while watching television, much less comprehend words on a page. :) But I do this a lot. I have a movie in the background--usually one I've seen before--that I listen to and occassionally glance at when something interesting is happening. Meanwhile, I'm reading a book--new or old, doesn't matter. I find this very relaxing. It is my favorite way to veg out. Throw in a little chocolate (of course I did!) and I'm in heaven.
Hopefully my mind will function a little better tomorrow for having the break. I can go back to stressing about flowers and what shoes I'm going to wear and how I'm going to pack everything into my little car... Okay, I'll admit to being a little obsessive. Here's hoping I don't freak out before this is over. I may need a girls' night out... my second favorite way to veg out.