Sunday, July 01, 2007
WARNING: Introspection Ahead
*Feel Free to Turn Back Now* :)
Unlike Smarty Pants, my life seems to finally be settling down. Yes, we have Nationals coming up, but for some reason I'm not obsessing over it as much as I did last year. Maybe because I'm not pitching this year. Maybe because I'm looking forward to refilling the creative well with some great classes and writing-related conversation. Maybe because I'm more interested in obsessing over my book at the moment...
I spent all of Sunday reading through notes, making notes and plans. I'm renewing my interest and involvement in my current wip and hopefully getting down to business. I've cooked up a writing challenge on our goals group to spur me to action. Nothing intense, since I'll be out for a week in July, but a commitment to write at least 1 page every weekday.
Pathetic sounding, I know. Anemic. I should definitely be writing more. But quite frankly, I don't care. In getting back into my wip, I'm getting back into ME. The part that is really me, that makes each day enjoyable and interesting. Not the parts of me that have a list a mile long of things that MUST or SHOULD be done, usually to make other people happy. I've spent a year of my life on that.
Now I'm spending it on me. :)
Do I have a specific target date for finishing? No. Do I have a target line in mind? Vaguely, but I'm not committing to anything. Do I know the projected word count? Um, whatever it ends up being.
I'm going against everything I learned when I joined RWA. I'm not writing with the business in mind. Just the writing. Enjoying it. Immersing myself in it. Allowing it to take me wherever it wants to go. An experiment, if you will.
Not very career-minded of me. But since I don't technically have a career, this might be the best time to take the scenic route and enjoy the view. (People who know me well are probably gasping in shock. I'm SO not the scenic route type!)
What do I hope to get out of this unusual behavior? As I said, I'm refilling my creative well. Also, I'd like to just write and see the direction my skills are taking. As in, have I progressed to writing in more depth? Longer page length? Are my rough drafts more refined than they used to be? And, of course, I'd like to have a finished manuscript at the end of the journey.
I may be way off base. But I have to believe that the writing is the best thing. The career will come in time. I don't plan to spend forever on this little journey, just as long as it takes.
Anything philosophical cropping up for anyone else this Monday morning? :) Okay, I'll let you off the hook. How about... how's the writing going for you? Check in, brag, complain, vent, whatever.