What Do I Want??

I remembered to write my blog in advance this week. Yay.

I’ve just gotten off the phone with DB where we discussed what he would like for his birthday. Never mind that between now and then, I will move all my stuff into storage, sell a house, move into a furnished apartment, buy a house, move into a house, go to Scotland and Dallas and who knows what else. He likes to plan ahead, though and always knows exactly what he wants. Myself, I’ve got a birthday right around the corner and I have no idea what I want. As I’ve mentioned before, if I don’t tell him what I want, I’ll either get nothing – exactly what I asked for – or I’ll get something he likes.

Unfortunately, I’ve got the events above preying on my brain cells. What do I want? I want all this to be over. I want to be moved into my new house and happy. I want someone to catsit for two months so I can get a decent short term apartment instead of the creepy cheap one that takes pets. Or better yet, for my house to get finished early so I can just move into it and skip the apartment entirely. I want a 5000 calorie slice of carrot cake with raisins and walnuts and inch thick cream cheese filling that takes up a week's worth of WW points and yet still lose 2 lbs. I want the clothes in my closet to fit again. I want to finish this book that I’m struggling with so I can pitch it in Dallas with a clear conscience.

As I always tell my sister when she whines for something she can't have - "So...how's it feel to want?" (Again, another reason I think I shouldn't have kids.)

As far as DB is concerned, all those are unacceptable answers. He wants me to tell him I want the CD soundtrack of some chick flick he can order on Amazon or better yet, some power tool he can get me at Sears. I’m hesitant to tell him I want X book or DVD or whatever because it’s just something else to pack and put in storage for 2 months. Not that I won’t happily accept a gift that requires packing, I’m just struggling for choices. In the end, I’ll probably ask him for Peter Pan on DVD and dinner out.

Yes, I’m busting at the seams with things I want for the new house, but it’s too soon and everything I want is too expensive for a gift. I want a new couch and entertainment center with a 55 inch Sony Wega 1080i HD rear-projection television. I want new landscaping and paint. I want a fabulous area rug for my new hardwood floors. I want a new bed comforter for our bedroom and the guest room. I want a real computer desk, not a wobbily card table. I want a dining room table that seats more than 4 people. I want 20 yards of concrete poured into a nice patio for the new backyard - stamped and stained while we're at it so it looks like flagstone.

What do I want that’s less than $100? I don’t know. I need new towels for my master bath, but I don’t know what my color scheme is yet. I could use curtains and blinds, but same problem there.

Its just a quandry I go through each year, so I can't really blame it on my chaotic life. It just makes it that much harder. I wish I could switch and celebrate his birthday in May, cause I know what I’m getting him, then celebrate my birthday in July when I’m in the new house and can get all my goodies. Otherwise, I’m just no help.

Someone, tell me – what do I want for my birthday? (Yeah, I know, but I’m not getting an engagement ring. Let’s be a wee bit more practical here...) And while you're at it, tell me what you want. Maybe you'll inspire an idea for me to add to my gift list.

SP